The satisfaction

Involving in events have been my interest since I was in secondary school. Being involved with scouting movement had made me more involved with events organizing. However I haven't done this for a longtime.

Until last week. Having attending the barclays. Make my old flame to come out again. And followed by the beach buffet after that. What I didn't know, I am getting old now and I don't have so much energy to do so anymore.

Anyway. The satisfaction I felt this week really cannot be felt anymore. I know my health is deteriorating but this is my life and line of work.. I must pursue my dream no matter what.

Always is ME

The problems never lies with you instead it lies in ME.. Yess! Me! How I treat you nowadays is due to my own issue with myself. I really don't wish that you hate me nor understand why I am doing this to you. However, I really miss having you around. Always making my heart pump irregularly. It was fun. I think one of the reason is I feel we won't be the same again.. So I try to push you far away from me hoping that I am the least effected concerning you.

You.

There is only 3 woman in this world that I "love " the most.
The first one is.... My mom.
Second is.... My beloved cousin( name not to be mentioned)
And the third one is YOU..
Yess, You..

I really care for you.. But you always... Disappoint me.. For one simple reason. Stubborn!!

You're the first person that I let myself being used. But,, you take for granted of the situation and everything ended not the way I wanted it to end..

Sooner or later it had to end..
It's just a matter of time..

Leave you be and you turn from bad to worse. Now it make me think whether I let you go in the first place was such a good idea? Or have I made a terrible mistake. As I recall, I double check before I made this decision..

Sometimes I think ppl can change as time goes by. And I think it's time to step back into your life. Pls forgive me if I am going make our life difficult in the future, but that's what it going to be from now on.

Sorry.. Sincerely,

Bala.