The satisfaction

Involving in events have been my interest since I was in secondary school. Being involved with scouting movement had made me more involved with events organizing. However I haven't done this for a longtime.

Until last week. Having attending the barclays. Make my old flame to come out again. And followed by the beach buffet after that. What I didn't know, I am getting old now and I don't have so much energy to do so anymore.

Anyway. The satisfaction I felt this week really cannot be felt anymore. I know my health is deteriorating but this is my life and line of work.. I must pursue my dream no matter what.

Always is ME

The problems never lies with you instead it lies in ME.. Yess! Me! How I treat you nowadays is due to my own issue with myself. I really don't wish that you hate me nor understand why I am doing this to you. However, I really miss having you around. Always making my heart pump irregularly. It was fun. I think one of the reason is I feel we won't be the same again.. So I try to push you far away from me hoping that I am the least effected concerning you.

You.

There is only 3 woman in this world that I "love " the most.
The first one is.... My mom.
Second is.... My beloved cousin( name not to be mentioned)
And the third one is YOU..
Yess, You..

I really care for you.. But you always... Disappoint me.. For one simple reason. Stubborn!!

You're the first person that I let myself being used. But,, you take for granted of the situation and everything ended not the way I wanted it to end..

Sooner or later it had to end..
It's just a matter of time..

Leave you be and you turn from bad to worse. Now it make me think whether I let you go in the first place was such a good idea? Or have I made a terrible mistake. As I recall, I double check before I made this decision..

Sometimes I think ppl can change as time goes by. And I think it's time to step back into your life. Pls forgive me if I am going make our life difficult in the future, but that's what it going to be from now on.

Sorry.. Sincerely,

Bala.

Not knowing

I always worry about you. Don't know what you are doing, where you are at now? All this comes into my mind. Especially who you're with.
Many many times I told myself not to care. I always cannot manage to do it.i May act strong in front of you. Just want to make you hate me. Sorry for doing that to you girl..

Me knowing you hate me make me live my life better. I will keep all my memories with me, cherish them, forever in my heart, locked and sealed for the entire life.

As for the lesson I learnt a lot from this epic journey. This really effects me a lot. Maybe cause it's my first encounter with this kind of situation. you've taught me a lot. I thank you instead.

Not knowing what you want, what you think, what you wanna do make me feel I failed you and MYSELF.it's time to move on with life. Let me end what I have started cause only I can end this karma.

The decision I took was not easy and I am trying my best to follow it. Sooner or later you will hate me for it. But I am sure this is the best decision and not the correct one. However I will be always there for you.

M, all the best in life. And always cherish your life. Alway remember that you're not as good as other.

IDIOT

Well, I think this word is good enough right now. Every action has a reaction. In this case, no action cause the reaction. And the result is IDIOT. I think there is progress. I am not proud of myself but I think being an idiot helps. I hate myself for doing so to her, but I have no choice.

I don't know why, but I have decided to do so. Treating her like that make me feel bad too. I am hurting inside too. But it's better this way. let her think that I'm an IDIOTIC person. Hate me please. Dun talk to me. Ignore me. I will completely get out from your circle, world.

I.D.I.O.T

To someone that still haven't wake up...

"Quote of the day"

["If you love me, let me know. If not, please gently let me go"]




I found this quote while i was surfing facebook. This girl wrote the status and I feel that it was brave of her to do that. I don't know what problem that girl is having but i figure it should do with love. However, I would like to dedicate this to my friend. I hope she do well in her love life and wake up from the nightmare she is having now.

♥ -bala -

updates

I am finally back in Langkawi..
 Happy time always fly so fast..
Back to work and boring life.
That's the bad news....

The good news is....
 I have only one more month before I finish my training.
For me, in Langkawi time fly very fast...
I will be back in Penang in no time..  



PS. Bala

Decisions...

Now, in this part of my life. There is a lot of decisions to be made.
All are serious decisions and I have to think carefully before I makes any decisions.
Thinking back at the past, I was just a boy that goes to school / college and I never worried about anything.
Now, I have to worry what I have to do next in my life.
Whether I want to work, or continue my studies.
If I want to work, where should I work?
I have to make a wise decision  and enter a good organization.
On the other hand, if I want to study, I have to think where I want to study and how much would it cost me.
I also need to know how long is the course.
There is so much to think about now...
And I don't know what to do..
Anyone can help me ?

A beginning of a new Chapter in life..

What can I say. 

He is no more a bachelor. 

He is beginning a new

 chapter...

 in his life. 

A family man he is now and a Father he would be in the future. 

Time... 

 pass very fast in our life. 

Happy and sad time we all been through together. 

True... 

We will always remember you in our mind, heart and soul. 

We don't look at the past, 

We endure the future together.

 

Remember.. 

Although we are not there with you, 

It doesn't mean that we don't think of you. 

Love..

is what we feel with you 

and make sure you have it with you always.. 

Family.. 

When you look behind at hard time, 

Always remember we are there for you

That's who we are... 

Married at last

Everyone had to come to this moment of their life. It is just the matter of time, early or late. 

For my cousin, Arusu, his time had just reach this stage.

 He finally tied the knot with his beautiful wife. 

He had been searching for his love and he found his soul mate. 

Guess how old is he? 30 years old and He finally settle down. 

I wish him all the best in his married life and hope 

he knows how to maintain this happiness forever. 

We all have been waiting for this moment and It finally ended yesterday night. 

It has been a long time since I ever blog. I doubt anyone seeing it anymore. Well, I have been busy with my industrial training and of course other reasons also included. I abandoned my blog just like that. 

I feel ashame to myself and i think I should start blogging back. Blogging is fun. And it express part of me in this digital world. 

back~ back~ I think..

It have been a while since I blog, 

I was so busy with my college life, 

I have no time to update all my activities and outing

So if you all wanna know what my friend and I did during the holiday

Just refer to his blog. (suithonglive) 

I will only update my status here from now onwards. 

many things had happen. 

some happy, some sad.

but life have to go on, NO matter what. 

For now I just want  to concentrate on 3 things

First: Family

Second: Friend

Third: Career.

This's all I  want to blog today. 

Hopefully I will continuing blogging. 

Choa~

fire fire... ~

One night I was driving back to my house. it was almost 1 o'clock in the morning and I was at Batu Ferringhi winding road. Then suddenly i saw a car stopped in front of me and was on double signal. At first I thought the car was broken or got banged. All those was going on my mind. But something else struck my interest. Smoke!! Then I thought the forest was on fire. so lame. Then i parked my car at the side and walk towards and I saw a car was burning. LOL. Alamak it's a car. OMG,, I went nearer to see is there anyone in the car or not. Luckily they then told me that the driver was saved moments before the fire started and cause a LITTLE EXPLOSION ! ! !  luckily the bomba came and did their part. and they were efficient in their work.. Finally. slowly the traffic became clearer and I get to go back. During the fire I manage to take some picture.. \

_The End_ 

When I'm drunk I can't help missing you..

13/02/2010

IT's been 3 month...

Last night we celebrated Sui Thong's Birthday Steamboat &BBQ party.. 

He is 20 years old this year and i Wish him all the best in his life.  

More update on the next post.....

one down two to go!!

I finally got my watch. 

It's a Casio digital & analog watch.

I cost me my one month salary. 

But it's worth buying. 

It's the most affordable among the good brands. 

since I am planning to use it for at least 5 years.

(lets hope it last that long) 

It's a good investment. 

plus I like the watch design.

So, I'm satisfied this round. 

It is a win win situation.  

Well, one down. But many more to go.

I wonder...

when can I finish wish-list.. =) 

man on a mission

Firday was thaipusam, saturday was my outing with friends. we went to annabelle as you can see in Sui Thong's blog that he had posted up yesterday. If you wanna know more about the place. read, Sui Thong's blog.

My story is about Sunday where five guys was on a mission to accomplish. First mission was to hunt for a watch and buying chinese new year clothe. First we went to Queensbay. Sui Thong came down and fetch me. then we head to gareth's place and Lembu's place b4 we head out to Queensbay. The jam was not that bad. Luckily we manage to pass the jam swiftly. When we reached queensbay and saw the jam, we decided to come back later. So our next destination is the penang Aquarium at batu maung. I bet many people don't know about it. so go and check it out by google. The inside was closed due to maintainence. So we just lepak outside. 

Check out the cool turtle, alligator, starfish and even the fishes in the theatre is amazing. Spent some time there we decide it's time to make a move back to queensbay. then we went for watch hunt and the result was not as we expected. so we decide to go gurney and check out the watch. Finally sui thong got his watch and also his CNY clothes. So our mission finally done.. Went for dinner at Max Gourmet and then went to buy cake for my friend. then back home. Mr. Jan is turning 20 this year and wish him all the best in his life for the coming years and we hope he loses his virginity soon. LOL.. Happy birthday man.. Yammmmm... Seng.. if you wanna see more just visit my facebook profile. i have upload the rest of the photo there. 

_the End_

mission accomplish

Today what I plan to do ?

First; plan to take salary. 

Second; go pay TM net bill. still got a lot to settle. 

Third; Pay my latest summons.

Forth; hunt for potential watches.

I have done all of that today and additional plan. 

I have cut my hair..
Now I look like a punk. LOL.. 

well. today night i going to thiapusam with my family. 

Tomorrow i going out also. 

Sunday should spent time in the house. 

Finish up what I suppose to finish.

Then i am done for this week. 

*wishes*

To those who is taking Marketing exam tomorrow..

To those who is passing up assignment soon..

To those who is taking KMS exam soon...

To those who is having holiday vacation... 

wish you all the best and good luck to you.

May god protect us in every way he can.

Thanks God.

-good night-

scared

 I sacred of what?

 usually I don't feel scare but now I am worried about my cake decoration.

 I hate to say it, but I am really scare I can't get through today. 

SHIT LAR!! 

I will wish for the best later. 

hope I get through with no problem. 

all i wish for now is someone to comfort me and give me some moral support. 

Just make me cool down and think. 

I FEEL ALONE RIGHT NOW..

I am like a boy with a blank mind. 

Can't think of anything...  Brain dead. 

I know it's hard for me, but life still have to go on.

The only thing I can do now is to..........

 HOLD ON! 

I need to change my lifestyle

I think it's time to change my lifestyle a bit. I just have been eating and eating non stop for the last one month. A don't know why, but my appetite is big. For example like last firday at the pasar malam, I had Lok-lok, Creepe, Chicken Breast, Milk shake, and corn plus fruits for dessert. It has been a long time since I ate so much. I am a bit scare so i decide to change my lifestyle. My previous lifestyle is to eat and sleep and shit and drink. No exercise involved because I cannot afford to go to gym and I am to lazy to exercise.

Seeing that my belly has grown bigger in the past 1 year, I realise that I need to do some simple exercise. So the easiest way for me is to swim at least twice a week. And I should stop taking the lift and start taking the stairs. I am staying at second floor and I need a to go up to my house? ridiculous betul.. So from now on, I am going to use the stairs.  

so cute. i will try this pose.. 

If I had this stairs I don't mind going up 10 times a day.