Not knowing

I always worry about you. Don't know what you are doing, where you are at now? All this comes into my mind. Especially who you're with.
Many many times I told myself not to care. I always cannot manage to do it.i May act strong in front of you. Just want to make you hate me. Sorry for doing that to you girl..

Me knowing you hate me make me live my life better. I will keep all my memories with me, cherish them, forever in my heart, locked and sealed for the entire life.

As for the lesson I learnt a lot from this epic journey. This really effects me a lot. Maybe cause it's my first encounter with this kind of situation. you've taught me a lot. I thank you instead.

Not knowing what you want, what you think, what you wanna do make me feel I failed you and MYSELF.it's time to move on with life. Let me end what I have started cause only I can end this karma.

The decision I took was not easy and I am trying my best to follow it. Sooner or later you will hate me for it. But I am sure this is the best decision and not the correct one. However I will be always there for you.

M, all the best in life. And always cherish your life. Alway remember that you're not as good as other.

IDIOT

Well, I think this word is good enough right now. Every action has a reaction. In this case, no action cause the reaction. And the result is IDIOT. I think there is progress. I am not proud of myself but I think being an idiot helps. I hate myself for doing so to her, but I have no choice.

I don't know why, but I have decided to do so. Treating her like that make me feel bad too. I am hurting inside too. But it's better this way. let her think that I'm an IDIOTIC person. Hate me please. Dun talk to me. Ignore me. I will completely get out from your circle, world.

I.D.I.O.T