i feel like alive again.

Today I feel like I am alive again. 

I haven't felt that for a long time. 

And today I am feeling like that. 

This shows that I am recovering almost 100%. 

Good new for me and you. 

Finally i won't bug you anymore.. 

I have already passed that stage. 

It's time to wake up now.. 

last few month was the worst time for me. 

It took me a while to figure things out. 

sort my life out. 

been doing that all the time. 

but I still can find my old self back. 

lost somewhere in space and time. 

still not willing to let go of the beautiful dream. 

I'm like a lost soul in Earth. 

A body without it's soul.. 

But today, i felt my soul is back, 

I feel that i am much more  alive now. 

Everything i refuse to do for the past few month. 

Today i feel like doing it.

I can even think properly now. 

I think my brain is functioning

and of course my heart is also.  

It seems like I am alive again.

that is what that makes me happy. 

Myself. Me, Mua, Saya. 

thanks to YOU. 

Help me to find my lost soul. 

I have a purpose in life again. 

I am back.. Alive again.. 

=)     

___________________the end__________________

Niga neomu pogosip'eun nalen
Neomu kyeondigi himdeul naleneun
Neoreul saranghanda ipgae maemdola
Honja dasi tto CRYING FOR YOU
Honja dasi tto MISSING FOR YOU
Baby! I love you! I'm waiting for you! 

Relationship philosophy

Few days ago, we came up with a philosophy. 

Don't ask me how? we were just talking and sui thong just pop out with it. 

HEHEHE!!! 

cause we all were having a bad time with our relationship? 

Is it a virus? It happens to most of my friends i know.. 

i feel sorry for us all, but guys and girls,

life have to go on. 

No matter what.. 

he said,

1st year in a relationship, 

2nd year, we get engaged,

3rd year, we get married,

4th year, we divorce.

 

This is the recycle of our love life.

it made me think back to what he said the other day.

And I think it's true..

A lot of couple nowadays get divorce more often.

Not considering the period of time.

But it happens in reality.

so think carefully next time when you go for your love. 

make sure it can last forever. 

don't get into the love recycle..

RED

Hmm, what's my lucky colour ? 

I wonder.. 

But today, only for today. 

I would like to pick red as my lucky colour.. = )

Well why red? 

That's for you to find out.

and for me to know only. 

Those who was with me just now... 

Please don't tell. hahaha.. 

Keep it as our little secret ya.. 

red in life... =) 

just for todayyy.. 

_the enD_

i want to have a new life. A new place to go. A new direction.

Certainly a new hope in life. 

story to tell

There was a couple, married, lived happily. 
one day a man came into their life, 
made a bet. 
A Devil's bet. 
It seems to be a good deal. 
But after that, the guy loses the trust on his woman. 
Relationship became worse. 
The other man then won her heart. 
Now he is lonely and sad and she is with another man.. 
what would he do? 
can he win back his love? 
 it's for you to figure out... 


_tHe eNd_


every night I cannot sleep well, because I know reality is better then dream.

BOsS BIrThdaY !

CLEMENT LONG...

HAPPY BRITHDAY ! !

we will always love you and won't forget each other although we

are in different course or busy with out own life.
We are gathered on this special day because we were once best friends 

and STILL is your best friends. 

Be strong and be wiser then before.

Now you are 20 years old.

If you ever need anything, don't hesitate to ask.

we are always there for you, especially me. 

 I hope you like the surprise we gave you.

Thanks for your warm hospitality despite it was already late at night. 

Thanks and cheers for the future. 

Best Friends Forever.. 

before going to clement's house

cheesecake made by us. 

Cake made by jan and gang. 

b4 going up to give him surprise. 

Yum Seng ! ! 

This is what we drank for the night. 

someone checking on the photo. 

catch up time.(Jan + Sui Thong)

Our insider. (clayton) and Sui Hoong. 

jan, yi lin and Boon teik + kel.. 

Boon Teik dedicating song to Birthday boy. 

birthday boy and friends. 

Sui Hoong. 

new friend i meet that night on webcam. her doggy..

thoughts

This does happens to me once in a while. 

doing nothing, then start thinking. 

The thinking can go to good or bad. 

Depending on our mood. 

Then later end up as the last picture. 

In order not to become that, 

I always keep myself busy. 

It helps me from being emotional. 

If you all have the same problem as me. 

Do it like me or find a friend to talk to.

I do that also, talk to a friend sometimes. 

photo took from the net to illustrate the situation. Thanks for the photo.