Always is ME

The problems never lies with you instead it lies in ME.. Yess! Me! How I treat you nowadays is due to my own issue with myself. I really don't wish that you hate me nor understand why I am doing this to you. However, I really miss having you around. Always making my heart pump irregularly. It was fun. I think one of the reason is I feel we won't be the same again.. So I try to push you far away from me hoping that I am the least effected concerning you.