the real reason...... moving on

i was studying halfway today and i suddenly feel very guilty, this is why.....

last Friday night suppose to be my friends birthday party, we were invited to her party, but we didn't went to her party, instead we were in KL that nite. partly maybe because of my friend's influence. but mostly its because of me..

Well, most probably because i don't want to meet some person at the party, i feel really sorry for my friend because i lied to her and didn't even tell her the real reason why i never attend her b' day party. So i am telling the truth now in this post the real reason that i didn't attend her party.

but before that, i just want to apologize to her on behalf of me and sotong and his bro for not attending your birthday party. the real reason is that we really never went was sotong don't want to see his ex' there and i don't want to see (you know who ) there la. so we have to keep up to our word, that evening we decided to go to ipoh for chicken rice but some out turn out to be in KL for the night.

we spent one night there and came back the next morning. the point is, we are just too crazy enough to do so and just because we don't want to attend some party because of someone. Now i realise that it is not worth a dime to do it. Any way i am happy with our sudden trip down to KL, so i really don't mind, but the next time i promise myself that i am going to attend any function no matter my enemy is attending it or not.

i am very disappointed with what someone had done to me over the pass few week, where i thought everything will settle down after confronting that person, but in the end it made me more confused and sad person. so i have decided to move on with my life and just ignore the existence of this person.

i have done too many stuff for that person ,and end up that the person don't know how to appreciate me and always let me down, i think i better just let go of the person. No use that we hold on to some one that don't know how to appreciate us. and i really don't know where i stand with that person now.. (the saddest part) moving on with my life is the only thing i should do now cause i don't think i can solve this problem anymore if only one side is trying..

Upon being in KL , i told myself that i need to be a new man when i reach Penang. therefore a better man i should be starting today and leave the past behind me and just take it as a lesson of life for me. wish me all the best and hope i will find someone that will appreciate me in the future.

ok, back to study..

bye bloggie (vivi)